LH, True. haha. I would be veeeery weirded out if he did that.

I'll give it a shot. Regardless, without too much trying I've been able to stay in the moment and enjoy the kids and the season-- as much as possible during crazy COVID times-- and spending as little time worrying about H as I can. Spent the afternoon at the pool having drinks with good friends while the kids ran around and played-- it was really nice. Thinking about a drive in movie tomorrow night after D8 and I make christmas cookies smile

Oceangirl... so nice to see you too! I've been wondering how you are doing and glad you checked in. You sound really good. It is so freaking hard and unfair and BS and all the rest, and one thing I've done over the past couple of months that I didn't really do so much before is let myself get really really angry and sad about it. That's helped a lot, I think. And... it is what it is, right? We can choose to stay and deal or leave and deal... neither path without its problems. For now, I'm still OK staying and dealing. I had a couple thoughts I'll post on your thread.

xx M


Me (45) H (41)
M:13 T:17, D8 & D11
4/19 BD #1 ILYB
8/19 BD #2 Long-distance EA
12/19 BD #3 Actually 2 year PA
2-5/20 R attempt #1
6/20 limbo again, back in contact with AP
9/20-present R attempt #2