Hadnít thought about until spiral posted he had an anniversary but today marks a year since the real BD.
And, still another +1,5 more months of IHS.
Iím getting real tired of it. Last night D6 said for the first time it feels strange that Mommy puts me to bed but you are in MBR. (For those who donít know sitch W sleeps in a cottage/shed while she is here)
There still is love in me for her but I believe I am close to as detached as possible while IHS.
Just really want to let ALL thoughts and feelings go and begin my new life.

Iím doing well at work.
Building more and more muscle. Will start intermittent fasting again in March.
House is ready for Christmas (I let W and kids prepare and decorate the tree)
Been very anxious about the roof from time to time but it seems leak is stopped but Iím looking at a renovation with 5 years maximum. Thatís about 25000 USD, or DIY and way cheaper. Right now I have zero savings and credit is maxed out. So Iím reading up and talking to friends about all components of building a house. Iím lucky with competent friends here so feel secure atm. In five years maybe Iíll practically be a carpenter.

Also would love some real snow this year! Snowboarding is my biggest passion.


Me: 34
Stbxw: 30
D:5 D:3
Mini bd: May/June 2019
Married: Aug 2019
BD: 6th Dec 2019
OM Confirmed: Feb 2020
March 2020: I filed for D
Waiting for D to be finalized and W to move out end of January 2021