I talked to the psychiatrist at work today, he did therapy for 30 years.

He told me that its going to take a long time for me to detatch, in my mind this has only gone on for a little over a month, for her its been several. We are not on the same page here. Shes gone, im still here and until I can match her indifference nothing will change. He doesnt advise that I try to save this M but if I want to have any chance I need to step back and let reality hit her.

He offered me a medication for obsessive thoughts and depression. Im going to take it against my judgment but obviously my judgment isnt so great.

Still havent contacted her and i wont. Sandi I just meant I am glad she hasnt reached out either. I have expected some nonsense reason for her to contact me nothing so far. The silence is hard but its good for me. Ill post again once I do my next therapy session and if anything else comes up. Otherwise my plan is NC, IC and to start these meds.

Last edited by Steve_; 12/03/20 07:28 PM.

T:11
M:10
K: D5, S7
BD: 9/1/20
WW moved in with OM 10/15/20
WW left OM 01/20/2021.
I paid last fees and pushed the D 5/3/2021
OM returned 5/4/2021
WW Left OM again 6/1
WW spinning-current