May, this is one of your best updates yet! I see SO much growth in you, in your relationship and just in your general life perspective.
Literally every paragraph you wrote is peppered with deep, authentic, healthy detachment:
Originally Posted by may22
Letting go of control and caring about what is or isn't going on in someone else's head.
Originally Posted by may22
It's been a good week, a really good week. I've been focusing on myself and the kids, Thanksgiving, getting ready for Christmas.
Originally Posted by may22
I trust that if we both individually get to the place we need to be to work on our MR, we'll deal with it then, with professional help. For now, we're just being parents and friends and I'm not spending any time worrying about what that means or doesn't mean. (Sometimes I feel a little coming on and I can take a deep breath and RELAX and let go, again.)
Originally Posted by may22
That experience unbalanced me a bit, but again, trying to not worry about it one way or the other and just be grateful that it happened.
Originally Posted by may22
It feels strange, though, not sad or hard. I feel a little remote about it.
Originally Posted by may22
One thing I'm loving over the past week is that putting a stop to all that mental flow of energy to my H is allowing me to spend much more mental focus on my kids.