Short context.
I had to isolate due to son symptoms which has led to us spending 3 days together, including the weekend.
Yesterday W traveled to her father with kids and tomorrow we are switching.

Mid call about kids getting sick (not covid), this happens :
W- spoke to dad for a long time yesterday. About us.
W - it felt really really good to spend time together all 4 of us.
Me - I liked it too.
W- I just found out I got the apartment.
Me - that's great!
W - I don't know. It feels so final. I realized I wasn't sure when I found out.
Me-...
W - ok I will just say this.
Me-...
W - a couple of days ago when I was watching TV our song from the wedding came on. I thought to myself if Mumin comes home now it is meant to be
W - I really really wanted you to come home. But you didn't and I cried. (I came home later in the evening...)
Me - I really don't know what to say. I have to hang up now.

An hour later she asked me about some paperwork she needs to buy the apartment...



We said some other stuff too.
Typing this up quickly because of work, but it's the most important.
This all makes me angry but of course also makes me think.
Any perspective is welcome.


Me: 34
Stbxw: 30
D:5 D:3
Mini bd: May/June 2019
Married: Aug 2019
BD: 6th Dec 2019
OM Confirmed: Feb 2020
March 2020: I filed for D
Waiting for D to be finalized and W to move out end of January 2021