MrB, BL thanks for you posts! Encouraging!
I REALLY REALLY enjoy my time with the kids. This past weekend we bought 4 new books and just sat down together in the sofa. We baked cinnamon buns together and jsut had a great time!
Will pick them up early today.
Qutie early on in parenting I started a little "chant" with my oldest and have applied it more now.

Me: "What is it you can do?"
D "Anything!"
Me "So what is it you need to do?"
D: "Try it and Fight for it!"

So update:
This morning W signed the papers. (Financials)
I actually dont know exactly what happens now but feels a bit strange.
Need to keep moving.
I have been looking at a trip with the kids but not sure I can afford it now. So many small expenses around the physical split.
Planning to visit my parents this weekend but W's boss might have corona (has tested but not got results) and if he does I probably shouldnt go...

Me: 34
Stbxw: 30
D:5 D:3
Mini bd: May/June 2019
Married: Aug 2019
BD: 6th Dec 2019
OM Confirmed: Feb 2020
March 2020: I filed for D
Waiting for D to be finalized and W to move out end of January 2021