Core ~ this stuff is hard. Gut punches every day.

You initiated an R talk. Pressure pressure.

I notice you sometimes do this and tell us you know you shouldnt have but you just couldnt help yourself. I have anxiety too and I know its hard but focus on that impulse control. Nothing good comes out of these R talks, you are just temporarily soothing your anxiety (as I see it) by dumping it out.

Hang in there buddy.