D17 is worried about me. D19, who is wise beyond his years, is giving me dire warnings about my plans. D14 is happy that I am giving her attention but I think she is suffering the most. I've adjusted mentally to the part where I'm going to be on my own for quite some time. I think financially I'll be okay if I get a decent settlement.

How does this work when you get old and/or sick? H had skin cancer and I took care of him for 2 weeks. I've had 2 surgeries already. One took 4 months to recover (severe injury), the other a few weeks. He won't have this problem. Ever. He has money and he will remarry.

I have no family just my kids.