H asked D14 if she was eating dinner with me and she said yes. He then told her he was going out to eat and when I dropped her off at 9pm he was still gone. It's so hard going over there, seeing him gone and knowing where he is. My thoughts go back to he's happy, living his life without a care in the world while I'm suffering.

I don't want him back I just don't want him to be happy at least not right now. Right now I want him to suffer like I am.