So sorry to hear that your BIL is in such a bad way and fully understand the way you're thinking.

You are really doing it tough at the moment. I hope you're getting and doing what you need for yourself in amongst being a tower of strength for others. I also hope those others know how lucky they are to have you in their lives.

Me:55 H:55
S:22 S:20
M:24 T:26
BD:Aug 15
D:Sep 17