Thanks J. My mood is improving a little . M and I went out last night ( he asked me) and we had a great time. He apologized for being distant this week and told me he appreciates how understanding I’ve been. Today it’s been 11 months! It’s really been a great year in so many ways, and I hope to have many more great years with him.

My dad offered to get me a cleaning service once a month. I might take him up on it. I just cannot keep up with everything and my messy house is making me anxious. I can’t wait to get out of work and go home and clean. After I cook dinner and drop D off at cheerleading of course.

I know I’ll be fine, I go through this every now and then when it all becomes too much.

I’m joining the gym by best friend goes to and teaches at along with my D’s best friend’s mom. It’ll be a good motivator . I’m going to organize my life and make time for it. I get the mommy guilt when I go like I’m not spending enough time with D. Then I remember she’s more into her friends and is fine with me being gone for an hour and a half.
Tomorrow I’m taking her and her friend to the pool. It’ll be fun