I have discovered each of her previous PAs. She should know Im not stupid. Every time she kept prying to obtain all the details on how I found out so she could prevent that discovery method in the future. Tonights PA is the first Ive learned of in advance.

Im really torn on this, if I take a hard stance, then I fear shell go straight to the divorce lawyer to file as she is that far checked out from the marriage and so strongly addicted to the fantasy.

If I let it play out, then it may run its course and could lose its excitement when it turns from an A into a R.

I have to say my level of shock and feelings toward what she is doing arent affecting me nearly as much as they have in the past. I am becoming more numb to her waywardness. I clearly see she is not the woman I married.

I have a few hours to decide until she is off work.

Me:41 W:39 S:9 D:6 T:20 M:16
PA:8/22/18, BD:11/6/18
PA discovery & IHS:12/3/18, W moves:4/2/19
Rville:9/27/19, I give D docs:3/1/20
W home:4/5/20 (due to CV-19), W NC w/OM:4/13/20 6/1/20