Starting to slowly understand. Haven't heard from her in 5 days, haven't attempted to get ahold of her either. At least there's no arguing or drama. My S11 health is even improving! It's amazing what stress will do to us. I want to blame all of these problems on me, but I know now that is not helping me. I must look up. I will also be finally moving out of this empty house into an apartment soon. Feels good to be moving forward although leaving the memories of our lives together as a family will be difficult. Been doing a lot of walking, breathing, grieving. I have lost weight and it feels amazing!