Barry. No one expects you to come on in leaps and bounds. This is your W your talking about. The one person you could rely on , the person you gave your heart too. If you came on in leaps and bounds it would hardly show love from you. It's a tough road and we all take it at our own pace.
Your world has been rocked but you will come out the other side Take care and just do what you can to cope at your own pace. Rd