So again a decision...

25 who has been incredible helping me see and admit my failings and my A to my W would tell me to say "so what?" and keep it moving.

Then I have this from Wonka for me to express myself bravely and authentically... "W, you've said this several times. To me, it is meaningless because if one is sincere in their apology, then effort would have been made to change the behavior that is causing damage to the family...especially to our marriage. I'm not seeing any genuine actions from you to end things with the OM completely. We are in this situation precisely because I am NOT willing to continue to live in an open marriage. You've made a choice where there's consequences. Very serious indeed. So don't talk to me like's insulting."

This will send W over the edge again. Consequences. So what?

It's Christmas Eve I think. I'll give it a few minutes to decide. Then I'm thinking I'll send the text. Not sure what it will do except let her know I'm not rolling over to be a cuckold happily co-parenting our son.

Me: 44
W: 45
S: 11
Married: 15
Together: 18
BD: 9/29/2014
OM discovered: 10/16/2014
I left her behind: 12/14/2014