Will you recognize the pre-explotion signs the next time? If you go back and and read your post from work, it seems clear it was building. That was a signal to do some type of physical workout to offset the pent up anger.

You have got to find some kind of emergency protection plan to implement. Our beloved Coach praised cognative therapy. It may benefit you to chech it out. If we learn to think better, we will act better. As long as we continue to repeat the same thought patterns and respond in the same manner......getting the same results, we stay stuck in the same old sh't.

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!