Have you given up your cold showers? Maybe start those up again? I accidentally did a cold shower this morning, and thought of you and your stitch. I didn't know how you could do it - but somehow - it had some sort of calming effect on me.
Agree with Little. Cry in the shower. Or drive somewhere else and cry.
Also, I would avoid telling your son not to talk about you to your W. He's confused as well.
Hang in there.
M:32,H 32 T:10, M5 BD/H Move Out: 9/2014 - extreme anger H Mental Illness Diagnosis: 4/15 Served D Papers: 10/15 Divorced: 11/15