Pickle stop mind reading and getting wet before it rains.
None of this do you control so it is futile.
Easier said then done but try.
I wore a sport coat yesterday that I had not worn in a while and happened to check the pocket which contained a prayer card from my Grandmother's funeral over a year ago.
She was great lady and lived to be 93. That memory was for me. Finding the card and to recall how she lived her life with grace and dignity.
The prayer I think is for you so here it is:
Lord make me an instrument of thy peace Where there is hatred, let me sow love Where there is injury, let me sow pardon Where there is doubt, faith Where there is despair, hope Where there is darkeness, light Where there is sadness, Joy
Grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console To be understood, as to understand To be loved, as to love; For it is in giving that we receive It is in pardoning that we are pardoned
I edited for brevity.
It is not the natural thing for us to let go of hurt and injury and give way to compassion.
It is a challenge and most people don't choose it
But it is healthy.
If you were scared and confused Pickle how would you want to be loved?
Let her struggles go and give them to God. All in His time.
You can read this today and it may change your outlook but if you read those words every day and live them like they are your skin
You will change your life and those connected to you including your W.
Your goal may be to get your W back right now but there is greater achievement for you here than you are aware.
Keep your faith in yourself.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am