She doesn't respect or trust you because you are emotionally weak. She really needs this from you and you aren't providing it to her.
She's a addict, liar, adulteress and behaving badly and she sees you fall in a heap when she really needs you. I strong man would tell her these things are unacceptable in his life and that his woman won't act this way. A woman can do amazing things to be with a man she is attracted to. If you really love this woman then start by loving and respecting yourself. She is watching you.
"What is best for my kids is best for me"
Persevere = happily being patient over a long period of time