Hey Pearl, I have a thought... not sure if it will actually help or not.
Seems like you haven't really forgiven BF for what he did. Seems to me that you are trying to put the cart before the horse. If you haven't forgiven him yet - whether you end up together or not - you can't really decided IF you should stay together.
My thought is maybe instead of focusing on whether or not you should be together long term... you should focus on forgiveness?? Once you've forgive you will be free to decide whether or not you two are really compatible??
I just got my recent book order - one is called "How Can I forgive you - the power to forgive and the freedom not to" I also go "Love Must be Tough" "Art of Seduction" "Not just friends" so at least I have some fun reading ahead. I'll let you know about the forgiveness book - seems to me that's the thing that will help me put away the hate and move toward indifference.
Seems like he's trying to do his part - he did a GREAT job planning a trip YOU would love. That counts for something... I'm not sure what
Not sure this helps... Just my thoughts!!!
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