Dear Pearl,
I'm glad you had a nice weekend and a fun SB party! Sounds like the cooking and activities together were nice for you. I also find cleaning vert therapeutic - last week I threw out a lot of old stuff as I get ready for the move, it felt good!

I SO feel what you are going through. Those exact thoughts/confusing swam around my mine for a long time - and sometimes I'd get even MORE confused in IC..thinking about the pro's and con's of both scenarios which can seem to be argued either way.

But I have a question - did these doubts come up mainly AFTER the A, or were they there beforehand as well?

Glad you are going on the trip and have fun..live in the moment and try not to think about things too much.

Sending you peace and love and looking forward to a buddy in SF!
((pearl))
-hhh