Seems to me what you are feeling makes a lot of sense. When we have been through what we've been through, you have to face the reality of single life, what it might mean etc. And, let's face it, there would be some positives...
I think it is also a sign that you managed to find some healthy detachment through your sitch that you can go on a trip on your own, GAL, and not have anxiety about what BF is up to at home, etc.
Is there any way you and BF can move to SF together?
