It's been one year since I started posting here. Part of me wants to go back and read through it, but the rest of me knows just how painful that would be.
I've read quite a bit of your first threads. There is a lot of pain there, but that's not all there is. Beginning in late January, yours is a very inspiring story. You're my shero!
Originally Posted By: pearlharbr
I realized that I don't need this relationship to survive. I thought it would kill me (or at least my spirit) to have to start over but then I found myself sad that I wouldn't be starting over on my own.
Sounds like a good place to be.
Originally Posted By: pearlharbr
I have lost the friend who got me through the worst of this sitch because she didn't approve of me giving BF another chance.
That sucks. I've never understood why a 'friend' would do that.
Originally Posted By: pearlharbr
I am one of the lucky ones, not stuck in limbo for a long time.
It wasn't luck Pearl. You decided you would not live in limbo.
Originally Posted By: pearlharbr
We seem to just be moving along at status quo without any growth or movement forward until I threaten to leave. Then BF does one good thing and I am placated for a while. That's not the way I want to live the rest of my life. Which I have told him. And he says he understands but goes back to the same old behaviors. Until the next time.
He gives you just enough to keep you leaving. Ugh.
