Then I think that I'm only here because it's comfortable and safe and wondering if that's enough. Sometimes I think it is. Last night all I wanted to do was get on another plane to SF and start over. Then I think if I do that I'm resigning myself to being alone forever because I'm too old to start over
LOL. You are a mere 35 years old. That's a great age to start over.
Your life expectancy is another 47 years. Do you really want to settle for comfortable and safe? I've got 15 years on you and I'm not going to settle. And yes, my economic standard of living will drop considerably.
