My opinion would be that "playing the field" is not going to help anything re BF. An eye for an eye is not what stops the hostilities. I do really feel for you and the struggle you're going through, it's difficult! In my mind you can either try to forgive and work on the R, or you decide that you can't forgive and move on. You could just take it slow and try to reconnect and see if that allows you to forgive?
