Wondering if it's worth it...all the pain to build a life with someone who treated me with utter disrespect and threw our life together away because he was too scared to speak up. Don't I deserve better?
He wanted to just walk away because it was easier but he expects me to to take the hard way now that he's changed his mind.
He wanted to try out the greener grass but I can't do that because "two wrongs don't make a right." Funny how he always trots out that line when he's done something bad, but if I make a mistake he snaps back and then says he's just reacting to my actions.
I'm always expected to be the bigger person. Guess what, I'm not the bigger person! I'm just a regular person and I want my chance now to see if the grass is greener. He spent months telling me that we aren't right for each other but is shocked that I might believe that now. Why don't I get the chance to try on someone new and see if I like them better? Why am I the one who is supposed to forgive and forget? Because I drove him to cheat? Because I'm the good girl? Because I've been raised in a culture of guilt?
I know life isn't fair but I really want it to be in this instance.
My mother has not really been there for me in the hard times. But perhaps she's right on this one - maybe I should make a clean break and not look back.
Last edited by pearlharbr; 05/22/0906:39 AM.
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