Swimming against the current - PH in piecing

[pearlharbr]

Apparently I have a much stronger skull than I thought because you keep hitting me with the 2x4 and I still don't listen. Argh.

So deep breaths.

I did call him this morning and apologized for overreacting last night. I know I get worked up and just can't stop once I get going. We did have a nice chat while he finished his drive to work.

Stuck, you're right, he doesn't know how to talk about his feelings. It's not realistic or fair for me to expect this to change all of sudden. I am just going to have to buckle down and work on my impatience.

This is precisely why I want to go to a counselor and am frustrated that he thinks we don't need to go to one. I see us going round and round with the same types of conversations not getting anywhere because we don't know how to effectively communicate with each other. He seems to think that we will figure it out on our own. This is a fundamental difference between us: I like to go to a class or do some type of research when I want to learn something new, he wants to wing it. I am trying to be open about trying it his way first but honestly I don't have much faith that it will work.

We were supposed to have our weekly R appt tonight but I told him I think yesterday was enough angst for one week and we both could probably use a break. We do have plans to go out tomorrow night, something fun. Then he will be gone for 10 days and I think it will be a good break from each other.

Puppy, yes, I'm still calling him xBF for lack of a better term. I don't feel like we are together at this point. If we are starting over, building a new R, we certainly are not at the point where I would consider him my BF and all the commitment that implies. And yet we are more than dating. We both have agreed not to see other people while we are working through things. So what label is there? I tend not to use labels in RL convos, just refer to him by his name. Do you have a suggestion of another acronym I can use here?