Hi guys, thanks for stopping by. I had a great couple days out of town and got back home this afternoon.

xBF and I went out tonight. Went to a comedy club and had dinner before the show. Pretty entertaining. Then we were going to go to a dessert place but there was a huge line and it's cold and rainy so we just went back to the house and chatted. It was funny for me because I told him all about my concert experience which I never really had before because I thought my interest in the band made him uncomfortable. Or maybe I just wanted to have something that was all mine. After all, I had been going to shows long before I met xBF and it was something I had shared with my girlfriends.

Anyway, as he was leaving he leaned in for a kiss. I turned my head so he kissed my cheek and had his hands on my hips. I didn't hug him back. I didn't know what to do but it felt like too much.

Now I feel overwhelmed and guilty and unsure of everything. I feel like I should want this to work but I don't have those feelings for him and don't know if I will again. I struggle with wanting to have fun and not wanting to give the impression that everything will just go back to normal without a lot of work.

Maybe I'm expecting too much of him and myself. Maybe I'm just overtired.

Last edited by pearlharbr; 04/19/09 06:22 AM.

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