I'm sorry. It must hurt like hell.

Here's what I think.

1. Find your mission in life.

2. Totally get a life.

3. Become passionate.

Those things will help you detach and move on.

Also they'll make you more interesting and attractive if she ever wakes up.

Don't sweat how and when you interact. It'll happen.

I suggest stop emailing her your journal. It's a non-stop barrage of your inmost thoughts. It will reveal your desperation and misery. It's as if you were chasing her and following her. How can she miss you if you pour our your thoughts to her in these tomes of neurosis? That's not sexy or attractive.