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I am really upset that my D is not going back to school. I am fine with a few friends doing school together and I already did suggest that. But they need TEACHERS. I may have the unpopular opinion, but itís all BS at this point in my area. The reason she is going all virtual is because 25 teachers decided to take leave. They canít staff the school. In my area it is now time to get back to work for teachers. For a few months there, absolutely not, it now we are under Control , hospitalizations and death are minimum and there are protocols in place, our kids could safely Return. So can teachers. I understand their fear, but it is time now. But there isnít much I can do about it.....

Fogg and Vu, thank you. I do believe I have lived my life in a way I can proud. When I said finding someone within a month , I meant within a month when they decide they are ready to date. So many years and so any disappointments to me. I still canít help going to back thing there must be something wrong with ME. But I do think Iíve lived a life I can be proud of. I should be very attractive to the right person who can see that. For whatever reason, it hasnít happened in the last 12 years, and I canít help but feel a little less hopeless for the next 12. I have taken myself off the dating sites. Now isnít the time to date for me. Iím going to be ok alone. Some days I really feel so awfully lonely and just want someone to hold me and tell me they love me. But Iíll have to stick woth my dog for now.

I really donít even know what to do with this poison ivy. Itís been a week, nothing has helped and itís getting worse. TMI, but my right groin is very swollen and painful and causing me lots of pain when I walk today. Iím on Abx to cover infection, but Iím a little concerned. If it gets any worse, Iím going back to the doctor.

Was were short handed at work today and my new boss decided to do things differently today which left me with the heaviest case load. The way she did it isnít fair. I have the heaviest and busiest floor with the most patients. Anyways, I didnít finish my work, but I left only a half hour late anyways. . I have to feed D and get her to cheerleading. Family first. Today at work we had 7 alcoholics and 1 heroin OD on my floor. Who her mom just had to tell today that her BF does to days ago and she screamed and wailed. It was awful.

Iím stressing about My D 12 birthday sleepover this Friday. I tried to do more yard work to get ready, but I just canít do it. Iím in so pain and the second I sweat, I itch like crazy. I did about a half hours worth and thatís it. exH said he would come take care it if he wasnít back to work. Which I thought was nice. Heís going to try to come after work Friday and give a hand.

As I write this, I realize I am really just have the most difficult time seeing positives. All I see is me trying to get through another day.Fogg, I really am so so so so tired of doing it all alone. And seriously, at this point I would never expect a guy to ďhelpĒ me, but having the emotional support for me and the love and the caring would really make a world of a difference .

I really wish to god I could find some positives. I could not be so depressed and stressed. Iím just in a place to achieve that right now. Iím really struggling to that. And it makes me feel really guilty I canít do that

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Girl, I want to know what you were doing to get poison ivy all over like that? My ex was super sensitive to it too. Going in the ocean (salt water) seemed to help him.

Are you positive it's poison ivy though? If you didn't have any likely exposure and it's not improving with the steroids, maybe there's another explanation?

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I was pulling weeds and bagging brush, unaware of the poison ivy. But I have identified it and it is there. I imagine my clothes rubbed against me when I took them off. I didnít use any as TP and I certainly was having a romp in the woods.

Although I am really concerned because everyone who I have known who has gotten steroids have had their symptoms decrease quickly, where as mine just keep getting worse. Iím getting a little concerned. If I have another day of torture an no improvement, I will revisit the doctor.

I just canít take the hits anymore. Nothing happens to me ďnormallyĒ itís always to an extreme. And when I donít even have the ability to just take care of myself.

This blows . I canít wait for sleep

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So sorry! Donít burn any brush, if you inhale poison ivy smoke you can have a bad lung reaction.

You need some music therapy for your mood. Get an uplifting playlist together and play it often. Also do some visualization of your poison ivy clearing as you go to sleep.

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Gosh Ginger. I donít even know what to say. Sounds just awful!! I hope things get better for you soon. (((Hugs)))


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