Just What I Needed

[tadpole1025]

Thanks kml, bttrfly, DnJ and AndrewP. I appreciate the responses.

Everything that you said makes sense. I guess it just struck me because her niceness and my feelings were unexpected. I've spent the last few days really thinking about it. Her niceness is a little less shocking because she has wanted to be friendly.

The thing that struck me the most though was her going out of her way to "look out" or "protect" me and my feelings of "protection" towards her. Those feelings of protection towards her also stirred up some others...mostly more sadness again. My son tells me that yes, she wants to be friendly, but also wants to move on. Not sure why, but the words "move on" still kind of hurt. I haven't had those feelings in a while and they kind of just caught me off guard. (Thought I had put all that behind me.) The last few days have been a little "different" and I've been a little "off" but I'm better today.

kml wrote:

How are you doing otherwise? My middle son just got a new kitten who is about the cutest thing I ever did see. Are you taking care of yourself? How is the grandson? Are you LIVING life?

Trying to live life. I'm ok. I don't get out much. I'm pretty much a homebody these days and COVID-19 makes it even worse. My doctor has me kind of in a mini quarantine because of my health issues. I do try and see my grandson once a month if I can. He's getting so big. Yes, my kittens are wonderful. I spoil them rotten. Two little, furry rock stars...they're the best.

bttrfly wrote:

Put another way: would you want to be the kind of person who would feel absolutely nothing for someone you spent the vast majority of your life with? I wouldn't.

No I wouldn't. Sometimes I wish I could be ice-cold, but you're right.

DnJ wrote:

Do you “really” resent her being nice. I suspect you have grown accustom to her ignoring you and/or treating you poorly. I know I have regarding my XW, and she is currently reaching out to me in a pleasant manner. It’s weird.

Not really I guess. I guess I'm just no longer used to her being nice to me and it threw me a bit. I'll chalk it up to "weirdness" and leave it at that.

AndrewP, Mine was quite similar to yours.

I'm at work. Gotta run. Again, thanks for the responses.

Tad

[tadpole1025]

Wow!

Realized this morning that it has been TEN YEARS today since bomb drop. Everything changed for me on 10/10/10.

TEN YEARS.

Ten years and I'm good.



Tad

[job]

Tad,

You've come a long way and you have survived! Look at all that you have accomplished over the years! Look at what you have going on in your life now...a new little boy to love and cherish, as well as my two favorite girls, Piper and Jazz. You have so much to offer and you let that love shine each and every time I see photos of your family. Keep up the good work.

[AndrewP]

Good to "see" you Tad. Glad to hear that you and your fur-babies are doing well.

[exquisitetobe]

Tad, that grand-child of yours is adorable!!
In your opinion, radio host like his granPa or RockStar like his uncle?
I love the videos you share of him!

[tadpole1025]

Thanks Job, AndrewP and exquisitetobe.

Job, you know, it's funny that you say I have so much to offer. I have lady coworkers who pretty much tell me that all the time and tell me what a great guy I am but......I'm not even close to being interested in any kind of relationship. I thought I was a while back, but I'm not. I just don't want the drama of it all.

AndrewP, yeah my little furbabies are awesome. They provide lots of fun and joy.

exquisitetobe, Thanks. Logan says hello. I think he could be a combination of a radio host or a rockstar. However, his dad is quite the comedian so maybe a combination of all three.

Take care everyone.

Tad

[exquisitetobe]

Buy him a microphone. Let' s find out!

[tadpole1025]

Haha. Not a bad idea!