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Last post, the question will H return to the mbr (while his mom visits) was in sitch. H & I did share the bed. It's huge cal king; we both stuck to our own sides. Last time was March; the night of bd. (April- Dec he was away at work/adventures).

I went to the bedroom before him, he was in bed before me. He had wine, asked me where mine was. I got one. We hung out, scrolled the internet, shared articles of interest. I turned out my light first. He did, but was still on his phone, which I could see. Nothing interesting. I'm beyond worring about stuff like that. We're in bed! I want my H. Nothing happened. I did not make any moves, neither did he. I was scared to. I want nothing more than him...lol...he just me.

Looking forward to celebrating the beginning a new year.

Sending good vibes to everyone.

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Journalling~ H has been preping of New Years Eve since yesterday. Cooking, and today for me flowers, & candy. Who is this? We'll see at midnight..lol..

Having a couple with their kiddo over later.

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Happy New Year! May the new year bring you much peace and joy.


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Happy new Year Can

Enjoy ...things seem to be good with H
Your are doing great and he really seems like he may make the turn back to you
Im rooting for you!


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Hello Can

How was midnight?

As to wanting H and nothing happened.

Originally Posted by CanBird
We're in bed! I want my H. Nothing happened. I did not make any moves, neither did he. I was scared to.

Small steps my friend. Small steps. You’re in the same bed.

Being scared sounds about normal to me. And good for you for not pushing. Remember too much pressure and he will bolt.

Letting him control the pace is going to take some determined foresight on your part. You could gently steer him in a certain direction - in a while. For now, go with the flow and let him get used to being in the same bed as you again.

If and when he is wanting then what? Determined foresight.

I’m guessing you probably have a whole bunch of questions and things you’d like to discuss and get answers and commitments for. That is most likely further down the path than advances from H. Do not mix the two. Keep the love making separate from love (relationship) talking.

Is that something you can see yourself doing? It’s just sex. Fun, wholesome, bonding, commitment building, etc... It seems that it would be out of order; sex before recommitment; I think it isn’t in these cases.

H’s confusion is still something he is working through. With no one else in the picture, enjoying yourselves together is a good thing. This won’t speed him along his path, and shouldn’t hinder him.

It’s a question of can you do this. Are you willing and wanting to. Just something to find your stand on, before it’s maybe right in front of you.

I’m pulling for you girl.

Keep doing what you’re doing.

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Originally Posted by DnJ
Hello Can

How was midnight?

As to wanting H and nothing happened.

Originally Posted by CanBird
We're in bed! I want my H. Nothing happened. I did not make any moves, neither did he. I was scared to.

Small steps my friend. Small steps. You’re in the same bed.

Being scared sounds about normal to me. And good for you for not pushing. Remember too much pressure and he will bolt.

Letting him control the pace is going to take some determined foresight on your part. You could gently steer him in a certain direction - in a while. For now, go with the flow and let him get used to being in the same bed as you again.

If and when he is wanting then what? Determined foresight.

I’m guessing you probably have a whole bunch of questions and things you’d like to discuss and get answers and commitments for. That is most likely further down the path than advances from H. Do not mix the two. Keep the love making separate from love (relationship) talking.

Is that something you can see yourself doing? It’s just sex. Fun, wholesome, bonding, commitment building, etc... It seems that it would be out of order; sex before recommitment; I think it isn’t in these cases.

H’s confusion is still something he is working through. With no one else in the picture, enjoying yourselves together is a good thing. This won’t speed him along his path, and shouldn’t hinder him.

It’s a question of can you do this. Are you willing and wanting to. Just something to find your stand on, before it’s maybe right in front of you.

I’m pulling for you girl.

Keep doing what you’re doing.

DnJ




Happy New Year DnJ. And thank you for your support.

The eve was a blur. We all induldged and recouped Wednesday. Nothing eventful happened. I did get a kiss & hug. Small steps indeed. I do need to be thankful for what's in front of me. My H is home, we share a bed & MIL is here to help with D3.

I'm with you on sex being separate 'fun' thing. And will wait, while being the best version of me I can be. Iove this man. When we work together we are great, including sex. I can wait. I'm not pushing anything. H continues to GAL with hobbies he enjoys. He also text to say where he is. He also has been lending a hand to neighbors which is nice. More interactions with humans & nature. Hopefully him & I will get a chance to do a couples thing. Yes, I can wait..lol..

I continue to GAL as well. Great that MIL is here so I can actually get stuff done. Tax prep time. I handle most of it. It's empowering, same with running our household. I can & I do.

New gutters for house go in tomorrow. Apparently there's talk of painting the outside. Actions over words...lol..That can wait, but I'm not opposed.

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Journalling~ So here we are back to sharing a giant bed. No pillow talk. It's killing me, but I will wait. He does it for me & I just want to be an animal, but I will wait.

Last night we both were awake on & off from 2am-6am. No pillow talk. Are you kidding me! I was so hopeful. We have ventured from our respective sides and a bit more to the middle. I put my foot out in hopes we'll play footsies. And my hand is available to be help. I think he's doing baby steps too.

Any suggestions on turning up the heat without getting


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It’s sounds terribly hard for you. You’re doing a great job.

All good things come to those who wait.

Think about the length of the journey just to get to here... and know that you’ve got a little more patience left in the tank.

I know you can do this and be patient.

And remember, if it ends up happening too soon he may regret it or feel pressured, and then you’ll have taken huge steps backwards.

Wear something nice, try a new perfume - and when he is ready, it will happen.

You’re doing so well - hang in there!

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Hi Can

Re: Turning up the heat.

Be patient.

Things are progressing.

Did you ever make a solutions journal? MWD suggests it to help highlight the little steps that are actually happening. It also shows which direction your situation is heading; allows one to do more of what works and less of what doesn’t.

An easy way to turn up the heat. Roll over and cuddle up to him. It might work out really good. You know your situation better than any of us. If you think it’s a good and right time; that would be a less pressure filled test than some other scenarios.

Personally, I think a bit more time is required. Two days ago was a kiss and hug (which is awesome by the way). Go slow. And when you think you’re going slow enough, cut that in half.

Also could try a date. A fun time together. Keep expectations really low.

Remember how confused he was about wanting to come home. It’s going to take time for him to sort stuff out. Don’t read too much into any one thing - good or bad. Focus on you and the long path.

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Things do seem to be progressing and everyone here has shared some good thoughts
you have handled your whole situation so well-

I would suggest to continue to lean back, read about feminie energy and see if it resonates with you
gal , be/have fun, and just connect by spending time together and enjoying the moment..work on a solid friendship and you can see it is moving in that direction

patience..one minute/hour/day at a time


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