I am so very sorry for your loss. May you and your family find comfort in the days ahead from the many memories that you created and shared w/him over the years. He is at peace now, no more pain and is always there within your hearts.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Flying up to go to the funeral this weekend. The total numbness had started to wear off for my sister, so it's difficult. But she's also really tough and has dived into doing all the many little things that need to be done in this situation. I spent an afternoon last weekend running various financial scenarios for her and I think she'll be all right; she'll have to tighten her belt but she knows how to economize, and in the long run she'll have adequate money for retirement when the time comes.