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Today is a great day:

I have this wonderful earth.
I have life, breath, intelligence, compassion, wit and love.
I have my Faith.
I have opportunity.
I have great, functional, loving relationships with my adult sons.
I have come one day closer to having the same again with StepD and StepS.
I have made positive differences in the lives of two people yesterday.
I have a handful of good, nurturing, long-standing friendships.
I have two new recent friends.
I have dozens of anonymous, but truer-than-true new friends on these boards.
I have three wonderful grandchildren.
I have my scars and they are all badges of the pride of surviving, enduring, and thriving.
I have a great brother.
I have two wonderful nephews.
I had many years with a loving companion, friend, lover, partner, wife, playmate who was once one of the finest people I ever knew.
I. Have. Abundance.

I am alone but not lonely.
I am broke but not in Spirit.
I am independent.
I am interdependent.
I am free.
I am self-aware.
I am sheltered, warm, dry, fed, and clothed.
I am hopeful.
I am evolving.
I am healing.
I am healing myself.
I am improving.

I am ready!


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"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac


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So powerful, so rich, such beautiful, insightful words and an expression of the person that you are Gardener.

Yay!!! This is like a victory song.

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Today is a great day (part 2)

I have have had this framed and hanging in my bedroom for months. It's a song by Mary Chapin Carpenter who, all who know me will know is my favorite singer-songwriter. I haven't looked up and read it in a while.
I did today. And I immediately thought, "I made it. I'm there!" Or, more accurately, "I made it to the beginning of there."

"The door is ajar and every window is open." Now it's up to me.

www.rhapsody.com/mary-chapin-carpenter/the-calling

Click on track 13's title, "Bright Morning Star", then click the play arrow to the left of it. I believe they only let you play the entire song free one time.


Bright Morning Star
by Mary Chapin Carpenter

Last night I dreamed my head was in a fever
Last night I dreamed it never was so far
To reach a shore of safety and redemption
And to gaze upon a bright morning star

I dreamed I was by friends all but abandoned
I dreamed I was alone but for my scars
And blinded by the tears that fell like water
No more to see my bright morning star

The streets of dreams never looked this lonely
The streets of dreams never felt this hard
I heard my voice barely of a whisper
As the clouds denied a bright morning star

Sometimes this life is no more than a moment
And sometimes the light is lost unto the dark
But courage hears the sound of dawn approaching
And each our own bright morning star

I woke to find every window open
I woke to find the heavy door ajar
And I walked outside and stood upon the hilltop
And gazed once more on a bright morning star

I walked outside and every bird was singing
As I found again my bright morning star


Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
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Hey - Don't I know you? cool

My new thread over here - A New Beginning

Not much there...Just a hello and my post from earlier today...

I am going to check out your thread over here now. smile

(((Hugs)))


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May All Who Desire My Ruin
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Originally Posted By: Cas05
So powerful, so rich, such beautiful, insightful words and an expression of the person that you are Gardener.

Yay!!! This is like a victory song.Cas
Thanks, Cas. Like the Eagles said:

"I am already gone
And I'm feeling strong
I will sing this victory song
'Cause I'm already gone"

And someone is "gonna have to eat yer lunch all by yourself!" wink


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In the one garden you may call your own."
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Quick journal,

Real good two days, yesterday and today. No particular reasons: Just good.

Rec'd email from STBXW tonight. Get this for the Subject line: G, to answer your question of December 14. (!)

Yeah, I'm gonna open that one. Right.
Although I may open it Friday morning before my meeting with L.

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(((Gardener))))

You go my friend - All in your time now - All about YOU smile


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Hey G. Looks like I'm moving in down the road from you here. Will be following your sitch.


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(((Gardener)))

Been 2 days - Just checking in to see how you are doing...

I hope all is well and you are out having the time of your life.

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Doin' good, thanks, Seren.
Busy coupla days with paperwork, mediator (I may drop that whole B.S. process!) and with Lawyer.

And with a "date" here at home last night. Dinner and a video ( and conversation !) with a delightful woman my loving nephew introduced me to.


Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac


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