Glad you made it through the "temp orders" okay. I know it's rough, but just try to remember that those proceedings are simply business (easier said than done).
La La land must be some wonderful place. My ex is still there too. Don't know if she will ever come out, but it doesn't matter because one thing is for sure - they are a completely different person when they come out unfortunatey often for the worse.
In any case, I too went through a "lame duck" anniversary - 14th for me. It sucked and I can't wait for the day too when that day simply becomes another day. Maybe turn that day into something positive by starting something on it next year? Something fun and exciting? Just a thought.
Good news for you that I know how to make a very very nice dirty martini. I call them extra dirty or as I have so named them "extra naughty". Must have a bit more olive juice, a very nice vodka, and 7 queen spanish olives!!!! I will make you one if you like!
Take care of yourself. You will get through this - but I think you already know that!
