OW's H has not returned my call. I will not call again. I have a feeling he will still call though. Oddly, I am having a good day, even though I am sick (body aches, cough). I am in a place where I realize this is H's mess, and I don't have one bit of desire to help him fix it. The only reason I will tell OW's H is out of respect for him.
I have been getting over the vestiges of a bad flu-like cold from last week, which included fever and chills, the whole works -- I know how you feel, and I am sorry.
I was down and out with the flu. The real-bodyaches-fever-chills-eyesocket pain flu. I am now finally out of bed and can play a board game or two, but that's about it. I plan on returning to work tomorrow. H left for Ohio tonight. Our D6 surprised us with huge emotions (tears, fear of H leaving) tonight. It really threw us because she is usually the calm one. It was very hard to watch and I fear what our future brings all of us if this D goes through.
H is going to visit his grandma, who is turning 97. She helped raise him and his youngest brother(while his parents were going through a messy D, big surprise). H has 6 siblings but managed to drive by himself tonight. Not a mistake, he is distancing himself from everyone. Would have passed on this entire trip, but knows he needs to visit his grandma. He hasn't gone since the A, and I know its because of the guilt, can't face her or his aunt and uncle.
We are on good terms. Peaceful but distant. Story of my life. Being so sick made me realize that I really miss someone caring about me, really caring. I deserve that.
