it hurts for the same reason you just posted on my thread...he still wants you to just be there, not moving on from him, like he has from you. he's an ass. and wtf is up with them needing to punish us for their failings?
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
He wants to tell everyone what you "did" so he feels justified in leaving you.
He wants you to wear the scarlett letter for ever
well you know what.
God had forgiven you, you better start forgiving yourself b/c if not you are going to end up in the looney bin.
SCREW him and the boat he came in on
Liss?? OG!! Kinda like the time you spoke to my x on the phone and he felt it necessary to tell you WHY HE has such a hard time having an orga.........uh, well.........talk about how STUPID IT MADE HIM LOOK!!!
Same as yours A......he's only telling about his shortcomings not yours. Retards.
Luv ya
Sparkles
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
Find a new place and make it easier. Sometimes I wonder if we just punish ourselves by running into our STBXs. Never in ten years have I ever randomly run into my H until last week. Was that fate or me getting into drama? Why did I walk to the coffee shop near my mechanic. Why did I see him being homeless on a park bench? Was that completely subconscious?
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
What's weird is I normally go to a bar with my cousin in her hometown (about 30 minutes from home) but she cancelled on me so I thought I wanted to check out this new place. There's no worry about me ever going there again.
I was thinking...more and more, I want to get a tatoo. I think some sort of cross, but I want a banner or something....survivor, fighter? Something along those lines. BTW I heard a song this weekend and thought THAT is what I'm going to do.....here you go:
Artist: Christina Aguilera Album: Stripped Title: Fighter
After all you put me through You'd think I'd despise you But in the end I want to thank you Because you made me that much stronger
When I, thought I knew you Thinking, that you were true I guess I, I couldn't trust Called your bluff, time is up 'Cause I've had enough You were, there by my side Always, down for the ride But your, joy ride just came down in flames 'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating You probably think that I hold resentment for you But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong 'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do I wanna know just how capable I am to pull through So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger Makes me work a little bit harder It makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter Made me learn a little bit faster Made my skin a little bit thicker Makes me that much smarter So thanks for making me a fighter
Ohh, ohh, ohh, ohhhh, ohh-yeah ah uhhhuh
Never, saw it coming All of, your backstabbing Just so, you could cash in On a good thing before I realized your game I heard, you're going around Playing the victim now But don't, even begin Feeling I'm the one to blame 'Cause you dug your own grave
After all of the fights and the lies Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore Uh, no more, oh no, it's over 'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger Makes me work a little bit harder Makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter Made me learn a little bit faster Made my skin a little bit thicker It makes me that much smarter So thanks for making me a fighter
How could this man I thought I knew Turn out to be unjust so cruel Could only see the good in you Pretended not to see the truth You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself Through living in dnial But in the end you'll see YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME
I am a fighter and I I ain't goin' stop There is no turning back I've had enough
'Cause it makes me that much stronger Makes me work a little bit harder Makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter Made me learn a little bit faster Made my skin a little bit thicker It makes me that much smarter So thanks for making me a fighter
'Cause it makes me that much stronger Makes me work a little bit harder Makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter Made me learn a little bit faster Made my skin a little bit thicker It makes me that much smarter So thanks for making me a fighter and one more I heard this morning....
Artist: Daughtry Album: Daughtry Title: Over You
Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one To build me up and tear me down, Like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left Just left me cold and out of breath. I fell too far, was in way too deep. Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls, Dragged the memories down the hall, Packed your bags and walked away. There was nothing I could say. And when you slammed the front door shut, A lot of others opened up, So did my eyes so I could see That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. Well I'm putting my heart back together, 'Cause I got over you. Well I got over you. I got over you. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
Liss?? OG!! Kinda like the time you spoke to my x on the phone and he felt it necessary to tell you WHY HE has such a hard time having an orga.........uh
ROFLMAO
idiots they are.
Live Simply Love Generously Care Deeply Speak Kindly Leave the rest to God
Do you have any tattoos already? It is a permanent symbol of this time in your life and what you are going through. Think before you ink! Having said that 83% of people live with their tattoos with no regret.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
No I don't have one but have been thinking about it for a while. I want it to symbolize something.
You know Friday night was so hard for me. Seeing that. When we went next door to talk there, this guy comes up and starts talking to me. The whole rest of the time we were there. First he started by asking me if I'd go to dinner. (well that's nice) but then he started asking if I'd take him home (whatever!)
I am not jumping into anything. Honestly he seems kind of pushy or needy. And I'm realizing that I don't want or need or have to report to anyone and I'm sure as hell not gonna start now....however it is nice to have someone actually wanting to talk to you. My issue is I really don't trust his motives....and I have no reason to. That and it's WAY too soon.
I had this post started and had to restart my computer so I have no idea what the rest of it said LOL
I'm a dork, but I will survive.....and I WILL be stronger.
OH - saw Dierks Bentley last night (droooooooooooool!!!) and won a free Dr. Pepper today. Life...is good.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
