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Oh, I am definitely smart enough not to sucked in. There is nothing to get sucked into romantically either because it is absolutely nothing I would touch with a 10 ft pole. I have no desire.

He definitely didnít have a personality transplant. I am just about positive he has OW contact since being remarried He might be doing this to make himself feel good. And fine, Iíll reap the benefits! I try to not ask for too much, unless itís for D13. The rest he just offers. So if he offers, Iíll take it. But yeah, he owes me. Heís done a lot of damage . And Iíve made his sins relatively easy for him. So if he wants to help, sureeee!

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Just journaling.

No work this weekend and no kid. Kind of rough on me sometimes. I did manage to keep myself busy with my yard, planting and landscaping. I grew up in apartments and this is my very first house with my own yard. I made a small garden and today I planted flowers. Looks ok so far. Itís a lot of work. And I really donít know what Iím doing. But the weather this weekend was freaky, it keeps me busy, my hands and mind occupied, so itís a good thing. No mindless eating, no thinking about everything that is going on. I do love it. Last nights I went to target to distract myself from my thoughts. They become a little dark at night. Iím lonely. I want to play with my friends again! Families see eachother around here. Not many friends. But I hope that changes soon. There is a good hope outdoor dining will open up tomorrow. And I am dying for a meal away from my dog yelling at me.

The ex and D12 came by yesterday. He had to pick up the steaks I got him ( forgot them when he picked up D 12 the other day) I didnít realize they left his wife in the car. D12 forgot something and said to her dad ď
Go to the car , H is waiting in there. He said ď I see enough of herĒ then he turned to my dog and said ďbut I donít see enough of you! ď weird. He made the steaks tonight and sent me a text thanking me for them.

In a nutshell , Iím keeping busy, Iím pretty tan, and Iím lonely and sad sometimes. But I still make the best out of life. I am working through something very tough. Through realizing I will lay likely never have a partner. Maybe some short term Rís like I have, but long term just isnít happening for me , and singledom is my fate. Iím learning to be ok woth that and grieve and itís a tough loss. I am an affectionate loving giving person. But it just isnít in the cards. And I have to be OK with that. Not easy, but not impossible. Look at everything Iíve overcome and accomplished and all the realities I faced head on. This is just one more.

I got this

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Happy birthday G Money!!!!!!


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ďDon't chase people. Be yourself, do your own thing and work hard. The right people - the ones who really belong in your life - will come to you and stay.Ē- Will Smith
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Originally Posted by LH19
Happy birthday G Money!!!!!!


Thank you!

Itís not so bad being 40. Saw friends yesterday, had sushi outside with them, then had a virtual happy hour with some friends, and it seriously made my birthday.

Got a call from a special friend this morning wishing me a happy birthday.

Iím actually in a super good mood.

Iím alive and healthy, and thatís something to brag about these days

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Wow that special friend sounds really awesome!


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ďDon't chase people. Be yourself, do your own thing and work hard. The right people - the ones who really belong in your life - will come to you and stay.Ē- Will Smith
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Lol......smh. happy birthday g love and special sauce!!!!!!!!!


Married 14, Together 17
M: 44, W: 43, D: 8, D: 6
M: 46, W: 45. D: 10. D: 8 (CUR)
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Happy birthday Ginger! The best is yet to come.


On BD
H52, W50
T27, M26
S21, D23
BD-9-Mar-16
D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18
I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good.
But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
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Happy Birthday!!!!


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The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
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Originally Posted by Ginger1

In a nutshell , Iím keeping busy, Iím pretty tan, and Iím lonely and sad sometimes. But I still make the best out of life. I am working through something very tough. Through realizing I will lay likely never have a partner. Maybe some short term Rís like I have, but long term just isnít happening for me , and singledom is my fate. Iím learning to be ok woth that and grieve and itís a tough loss. I am an affectionate loving giving person. But it just isnít in the cards. And I have to be OK with that. Not easy, but not impossible. Look at everything Iíve overcome and accomplished and all the realities I faced head on. This is just one more.

I got this

Happy Birthday Ginger1!

I'm far from up to date on your posts, just curious. Why are you doomed to singledom? Who's deciding that fate for you? Is it what you want?


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D4, S2
ILYBNILWY 9/19
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happiest of birthdays dear G xoxoxo


M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
H moved out 4/24/15
D Final 12/23/16

"True love travels on a gravel road."
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