I am so very glad that things are finally looking up for you in 2019. You've worked so hard to get to this point and now you can begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Please take care of yourself....and starting really and truly enjoying life!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
In short new life and a happy man. I hope you are feeling a little more loved about who you are. It seems so. I am too. It all takes work however, of course and PTSD will stay, but like grief, it will diminish I am sure.
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