Cadet and OwnIt- I have nothing against the books. I see on these threads how well they work. Because of you guys I will wind up reading them. I just thought they were geared toward trying to work on it and at the moment I'm tired and I feel like I want to start anew. And Cadet I will delete my history= Good advise!
I'm not against the books. I know how important they could be for my sitch. I just think I was buffalo'd all this time. Really trying to go in the correct direction. Thanks for the support, it really is appreciated.
Yes it appears that she wants to work it out, she doesn't want to lose me(her words). I think thats good I guess. We had a talk last night that she initiated. Says the A is over and she is going to get help. I do love her. Like in Cadet's intro response. I have to believe nothing that she says. I don't want to get sucked back into something with someone who has been lying to me for a long time just because she says so. And.... she was in the bed again last night as well. I'm very apprehensive!
Absolutely! I was totally played. It's embarrassing how well I was played. I got it right at first, but then I allowed her to convince me that it was "just friends" and that I needed to deal with my jealousy issues. Fortunately, we went to an MC that kicked my @ss real good. Of course, my wife (now XW) stopped going to the MC after it became clear things weren't going according to her plans.
It all s*cked, but I grew a pair so big that I had to put wheels on them because otherwise they would drag on the ground. (I might be exaggerating just a little.)