BA~Kalni~Greek=Appreciate the good thoughts & words, thank you!
Last week saw a continuation & escalation of events...Like a bad movie I couldn't exit from.
Found myself in the registrar's office Friday unable to breathe. I've always been able to maintain my composure under difficult circumstances, so it was new to me to be unable to gather myself together. So, this woman I'd never met took me into her office & gave me immeasurable support. There are some incredibly amazing people out there, what an angel!
My son is out on the streets, coming back occasionally to try to get in the house. I have to let him go.
I gave notice to H yesterday that I want it all completed by this week. I let him go, also.
Both were past due. Had I done what I should have, instead of "Bo Peeping," a lot of damage would have been avoided. I'm certain of that!
Taking a page out of the Skills of Optimism class I attended last week;
"Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom." ~Viktor Frankl
Find your self, right yourself and all other things will fall into place. It just make take them a while to get there. Thinking of you and sending you strength and love.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
New v.m. from H just now, "S18 is living in alleys, he called me this morning & sounds desperate. I don't know what you're going to do about it. Just so you know."
Nothing I can do to save him from himself. Made that error with both of them, making sure they escaped any kind of real learning opportunity.
Kat-Trying to right myself. Much better than I was a few days ago. I minimized the shape I was in last week. I just left the gym, where I avoided my neighbor. I'm sure they've witnessed all the police cars here again & I'm not yet ready to be asked how things are going.
New v.m. from H just now, "S18 is living in alleys, he called me this morning & sounds desperate. I don't know what you're going to do about it. Just so you know."
He's not sure what YOU are going to do about it??? What about what HE is going to do about it. S18 called him afterall and not you. Why does he think that S18's problems are all your responsibilities? Geesh, where do these types of men come from?
I hope and pray that life gets immeasurably better for you and your son sooner rather than later.
@BA- Yep, it's my job to figure out what to do about S18. What I'm doing is the same thing I've done with H-letting him go. I haven't heard from him in a couple of days & it's a relief! He's living with a friend in a garage somewhere. Not much has been appreciated, although it'll be interesting when it gets colder around here.
Well, actually, I spent half a day last week in the Dr's office taking care of my skin, while I'm covered. After reading a post of yours a while back, I decided I better get on it. I had a mole that had changed significantly over the last few months I knew was going to be trouble, and it was. While I was there I had a good amt of sun damage addressed. Left there feeling like I'd been tortured. Less than 1/2 week later I can say it was worth the pain.
H is still busy toying with me. Sent me the revised MSA, saying there may be a few mistakes...almost none of the thing's he agreed to change, were changed. I just got it Friday afternoon (of course), so haven't wanted to waste my weekend dealing with more of this stuff. I did notice he put in there that it wouldn't take effect until after Dec. 31, 2010, but in his cover letter said we just had to file the MSA with the court and it would be final. I guess he still wants to file taxes together. I don't think they let you do that (File everything & put it on hold to suit your purposes.)
Letting go of both of them has been an excellent decision.
