Keep Moving Forward

[Aud31]

((hugs)) One step at a time BeingMe. Did something happen?

[BeingMe]

Hi ACJ! No, nothing happened except my being tired of sharing a bed with a H who isn't just a teeny weeny romantic. I need as much positiveness in my life right now to help me fight this tumour, and feeling resentful every time I go to bed isn't helping me. So, I asked him to move to the spare room.

I just feel like we are best friends, family, but not lovers or even partners in a M. I almost feel like his child. He drives me everywhere, I rely on him financially and am clueless about it. He is kind and helpful, but he is not the H I married.

I am thinking of moving back to the city where my D22 lives. My two grandchildren are there and I have good friends and some family living there too. I think it would be good to have all that support. Not that I don't have friends here, but they are new and I'm uncertain of them. So, I don't like to burden them with any of my fears, issues, or stuff like that. Just have fun with them! Which is nice too.

I have to wait a year, however, until D16 finishes school. So, will be able to finish my second year of uni here and then transfer to the uni in other city.

So, the journey continues.

[ACJ]

That's a very brave move to make but I commend you for it.

I can fully understand why you would want to move back closer to your family. Would D16 want to move back there?

[BeingMe]

There's the rub! D16 is off to college after next summer, so that's when I plan to go. I am hoping S22 and she will come with. There's a good art school there for D16. But, she has her plans, so I am only hoping. H intends coming with too. We will keep our house here and rent it out. Maybe buy an apartment there.

But, it's a year away and things can change. So, wait and see.

[whatisis]

Happy Thanksgiving, Being Me. Stay positive, thinking of ya!

[whatisis]

What's new Being Me? Still thinking of you

[Phoenix_spark]

Just checking in to see how the battle is still going here in the trenches.

((((BM))))

[BeingMe]

I have hair!

[BeingMe]

Here is a poem I wrote a couple of years ago, for a church young women's Christmas event. It's about faith at Christmas time.

Christmas Faith

Faith is the answer to what cannot be seen,
a belief in our Heavenly Father and His Son,
who died on the cross so we may be clean,
rose from the grave, after two days and one.

Faith moved a fisherman to drop his net,
to follow the Savior throughout his quest,
to save the world from sin and death,
giving our lives to Him who knows best.

Faith is involved when a little child prays,
for something so small, we cannot relate,
we adults are impatient to know of His ways,
but God says have faith as a child and wait.

Faith is knowing that we are not alone,
God is our Lord, and Jesus our Saviour,
the Holy Ghost teaches of what should be known,
of joy, hope, and quietly guides our behaviour.

Faith is not deaf, or dumb, or blind,
it sees with a greater power, incandescent,
with our spirit we seek and hope to find,
how we might be saved, through Jesus' Atonement.

So, let faith guide us at this Christmas time,
yes, let's open our gifts and have some fun,
but also remember the Christ Child, sublime,
Our creator, Heavenly Father's only begotten Son!

Have an awesome Christmas, y'all. I will be thinking about you in your struggles, posting too, but I just wanted to let you know that sometimes, we have to "be as a child, and wait" for the miracles to come.

[whatisis]

Love the poem, Being Me.
I just bought Joel Osteen's new book It's Your Time and the first lines I read were:
"When the bottom falls out and it looks like you hit an all-time low...when it just couldn't get any worse...you don't know what God has around the corner. That is not the time to get bitter. That's not the time to get negative. That is the time to put your shoulders back and boldly declare: "My time is coming, I am a victor and not a victim"

Take care of yourself