HAD to remind me that most companies frown on the whole drinkin' on the job thing huh Jules!??!! I'll never make it in the real world I swear. ;-) What are ya having girl?
I'm almost done as well, so I think I deserve a drink. I would have been here before all of the other lushes but they elbowed me to the back of the line. Take pity on me and line 'em up...
So I have to admit...I've been a bit down lately. Not sure why. Holidays? Job?
I've gotten myself into a pretty bitter phase with the stbx. Which has really helped move on...but I'm not sure how healthy it is for my soul. I don't need to carry that with me anymore. I have to accept that I married a weak and selfish person and that she is only doing what she knows. Can't change it or expect more from her....just need to focus on myself I guess. And lord knows I have enough on my plate to deal with.
I need to push it all aside and enjoy my kids these next few days.
thanks Hun! I know but I took so much blame for so long. I'm starting to allow myself to let her shoulder her part of it. I didn't make her build walls, hide her feelings or have an A. I used to believe that I was to blame for that. I'm not. Those were choices she made and she will have to live with them.
I guess the trick is to remove that from my shoulders and forgive her for it...even though she doesn't seek it.
But again, this has also really let me move on and see her for who she really is and realize that is someone I can not be with.
