starving for more than just sex in a ssm - 06/14/06 12:32 AM
Same ole same ole round here.
Each month that passes by I find myself more and more thinking what a big mistake I made letting him come home.
It's been almost 4 years since his return and things to me feel worse than they were before he left.
not only am I living in a ssm, I'm also attention starved, affection starved, emotinal connection starved.
it's almost like were just living the roles him the provider who works hard and is almost never around or when is around is too tired from working hard to be of any use to anyone but the couch. Me the house wife taking care of the home and the two young kids.
I'm lonely. This is not a new feeling for me in regard to this relationship but I was fooled into believing he was going to change when he came home...he sure made it sound like he'd realized the imporance of spending quality time with the wife and kids but now we're just supposed to accept it?
before you say it...yes I have a life of my own...too much of a life at times, plenty of clubs, plenty of friends, plenty of activities. I'm not lonly for friends or a life I'm lonely for a male companion.
for those who don't know me I should clarify that though it sounds as if I was the waw that is not the case...he had ea, he moved out, he said he wanted d, he was given a choice for a while and just about the time the choice would no longer be his decided he'd made a mistake and wanted to come home.
now he's dug his feet in and I feel hopeless.
LL
Each month that passes by I find myself more and more thinking what a big mistake I made letting him come home.
It's been almost 4 years since his return and things to me feel worse than they were before he left.
not only am I living in a ssm, I'm also attention starved, affection starved, emotinal connection starved.
it's almost like were just living the roles him the provider who works hard and is almost never around or when is around is too tired from working hard to be of any use to anyone but the couch. Me the house wife taking care of the home and the two young kids.
I'm lonely. This is not a new feeling for me in regard to this relationship but I was fooled into believing he was going to change when he came home...he sure made it sound like he'd realized the imporance of spending quality time with the wife and kids but now we're just supposed to accept it?
before you say it...yes I have a life of my own...too much of a life at times, plenty of clubs, plenty of friends, plenty of activities. I'm not lonly for friends or a life I'm lonely for a male companion.
for those who don't know me I should clarify that though it sounds as if I was the waw that is not the case...he had ea, he moved out, he said he wanted d, he was given a choice for a while and just about the time the choice would no longer be his decided he'd made a mistake and wanted to come home.
now he's dug his feet in and I feel hopeless.
LL