Divorced 12/12/08 - 12/12/08 08:46 PM
Well I see a few familiar people on here. I haven't been on in a while. Probably only a handul of posts over the last year. So if you don't know me - hi, I'm Scott and I lived on the boards for about a year and a half.
Today it became official. I am Divorced. It has been the most trying and sometimes rewarding 2 years and 4 months of my life. I have gained so much through this website that I thought it only appropriate to come back on today.
It hasn't been easy but I am at peace with it. She came by yesterday to get some of the kids stuff and I realized that it was the first in I don't know how long that we have been alone in a room together. And although somewhat sad, I looked at her and felt nothing. It's almost hard to believe we were together for so long.
I still carry some bitterness for what she did to me. But I'm slowly learning to deal with it. I'll get there.
My R with my kids is ten fold what it was before. And I clearly see her being a better mother too. She is still with the guy she left me for and has brought him into my children's lives. Had Thanksgiving with him etc. That has probably been almost as hard to deal with as her leaving me. But...again...with each day it gets easier. I know I can't control it so I do my best to focus on my life and my R with them.
I have dated my fair share of wonderful ladies over the course of the last year and a half. One being an amazing woman from these very boards. All of which has taught me a lot about myself, helped me grow as well as heal. It's amazing how much damage a bad M can do to ones self worth.
I've come to realize how good of a guy I am. How much I do offer to others. I've learned to express myself and my feelings far better than I ever have before. I've learned to listen. I've learned patience. However, I've also learned that I am certainly not perfect and that this life is a journey. A jouney where you need to learn and grow. And that at the end of this journey, it is the things you pick up along the way that make all the difference.
Tonight some very good friends who have stood by me through thick and thin are taking me out on the town to celebrate this new begining....although it is, in reality, already begun.
I thank all of the wonderful people who have stood by me on here and who have helped me. I really have no idea where I would be today without you. Amazing really.
If you are still trying to save your M. God bless you. And I hope you do. And I hope you are happy in the end. If you have given up the fight and trying to find your way, please have faith that at the end of the day life is what you make if it. It is a gift. Enjoy it because you only get one shot at it.
I wish you all love, peace and happiness.
Scott
PS: my laptop died and I'm doing this from my phone so sorry about typos, etc.
Today it became official. I am Divorced. It has been the most trying and sometimes rewarding 2 years and 4 months of my life. I have gained so much through this website that I thought it only appropriate to come back on today.
It hasn't been easy but I am at peace with it. She came by yesterday to get some of the kids stuff and I realized that it was the first in I don't know how long that we have been alone in a room together. And although somewhat sad, I looked at her and felt nothing. It's almost hard to believe we were together for so long.
I still carry some bitterness for what she did to me. But I'm slowly learning to deal with it. I'll get there.
My R with my kids is ten fold what it was before. And I clearly see her being a better mother too. She is still with the guy she left me for and has brought him into my children's lives. Had Thanksgiving with him etc. That has probably been almost as hard to deal with as her leaving me. But...again...with each day it gets easier. I know I can't control it so I do my best to focus on my life and my R with them.
I have dated my fair share of wonderful ladies over the course of the last year and a half. One being an amazing woman from these very boards. All of which has taught me a lot about myself, helped me grow as well as heal. It's amazing how much damage a bad M can do to ones self worth.
I've come to realize how good of a guy I am. How much I do offer to others. I've learned to express myself and my feelings far better than I ever have before. I've learned to listen. I've learned patience. However, I've also learned that I am certainly not perfect and that this life is a journey. A jouney where you need to learn and grow. And that at the end of this journey, it is the things you pick up along the way that make all the difference.
Tonight some very good friends who have stood by me through thick and thin are taking me out on the town to celebrate this new begining....although it is, in reality, already begun.
I thank all of the wonderful people who have stood by me on here and who have helped me. I really have no idea where I would be today without you. Amazing really.
If you are still trying to save your M. God bless you. And I hope you do. And I hope you are happy in the end. If you have given up the fight and trying to find your way, please have faith that at the end of the day life is what you make if it. It is a gift. Enjoy it because you only get one shot at it.
I wish you all love, peace and happiness.
Scott
PS: my laptop died and I'm doing this from my phone so sorry about typos, etc.
gypsy - the four agreements is good stuff that has helped me a lot! Stick with it!
you and Ty have been my saving grace. I honestly believe that the 3 of us will have a bond for the rest of our lives that will never be broken. 
