Pre Piecing - 11/06/15 06:17 PM
Link to my previous thread in Newcomers...
Trying to stay patient- part 8
I wouldn't say we're piecing yet, just seeing what happens...
Background
A little under a month ago, W sent me an email wondering what us trying would look like- how would it work? Steps involved? Our expectations, etc... We decided to meet up for dinner and discuss further. We agreed to give it a shot, but because it's been over 2 yrs since we separated, didn't really know the steps involved. Because so much time has passed and this was basically a 'new' R, I wasn't going to insist on MC or no contact letters. However, she did ask me to send her my thoughts on what I would need from her.
A couple days later, I sent an email outlining some random thoughts- how we should increase communication, start hanging out and explaining my need for her to end certain friendships. She responded a few days after with her needs- mainly to be patient with her as after living by herself for 2 yrs, she struggles with our increased communication and feeling like she has to 'answer' to me on her whereabouts.
Interaction
For the past 3 weeks, we've been texting pretty much daily. Mainly regarding the kids or the week's schedule, but there is some small talk in there as well. It's been light talk, nothing R related, but it's a huge change from these past 2 yrs when our limited communication was through email. She asked me to go Halloween shopping with her last weekend and I've asked her out for this upcoming Sunday.
We've been getting along surprisingly well. The kids had a Halloween party at the house last weekend and she asked if she could help with food. She stayed for most of the day and helped with the party as well. I do notice a change in how she interacts with me- she's friendlier to me, hasn't snapped at me, doesn't seem on edge...she even mentioned buying me some new rugs for the house?!
OM
When we originally met for dinner to discuss 'trying', I explained that it was taking a lot for me to open up to her and be vulnerable again, because of what had happened. She acknowledged that and asked what I would need her to do. I asked for her to unfriend him on Facebook, delete emails/texts, etc. She doesn't use FB a whole lot, but I did notice that she unfriended him. It's at least a step in the right direction. I'm starting over from square 1 in the trust department, so this will be an ongoing feeling I'll need to deal with.
Feelings
I don't have 'those' feelings for her yet- I'm chalking it up to still being waaaay too early, but I can't help wondering if maybe after all this time and all I've been through, that they won't come back?? The thought of being intimate with her doesn't even cross my mind, and when it does, I question if I'd ever be able to, knowing there was an OM. Like I said- way too early for any of that thought, just noting it and wondering if others felt the same this early on? I do worry that W will throw her hands up and give up after a few weeks/months go by if she doesn't have 'those' feelings either. I just hope that we both can give it enough time to know for sure.
So right now it's just taking things slow, hanging out, having fun and rebuilding a friendship with no pressure involved. She initiates most of our communication, which shows me that she is putting forth the effort. Without coming out and saying it, I'm trying to let her drive us. If this should continue, at some point we'd need to have some tough conversations and I'd still insist on MC, but we're a ways off from that.
I welcome any thoughts/advice...
Trying to stay patient- part 8
I wouldn't say we're piecing yet, just seeing what happens...
Background
A little under a month ago, W sent me an email wondering what us trying would look like- how would it work? Steps involved? Our expectations, etc... We decided to meet up for dinner and discuss further. We agreed to give it a shot, but because it's been over 2 yrs since we separated, didn't really know the steps involved. Because so much time has passed and this was basically a 'new' R, I wasn't going to insist on MC or no contact letters. However, she did ask me to send her my thoughts on what I would need from her.
A couple days later, I sent an email outlining some random thoughts- how we should increase communication, start hanging out and explaining my need for her to end certain friendships. She responded a few days after with her needs- mainly to be patient with her as after living by herself for 2 yrs, she struggles with our increased communication and feeling like she has to 'answer' to me on her whereabouts.
Interaction
For the past 3 weeks, we've been texting pretty much daily. Mainly regarding the kids or the week's schedule, but there is some small talk in there as well. It's been light talk, nothing R related, but it's a huge change from these past 2 yrs when our limited communication was through email. She asked me to go Halloween shopping with her last weekend and I've asked her out for this upcoming Sunday.
We've been getting along surprisingly well. The kids had a Halloween party at the house last weekend and she asked if she could help with food. She stayed for most of the day and helped with the party as well. I do notice a change in how she interacts with me- she's friendlier to me, hasn't snapped at me, doesn't seem on edge...she even mentioned buying me some new rugs for the house?!
OM
When we originally met for dinner to discuss 'trying', I explained that it was taking a lot for me to open up to her and be vulnerable again, because of what had happened. She acknowledged that and asked what I would need her to do. I asked for her to unfriend him on Facebook, delete emails/texts, etc. She doesn't use FB a whole lot, but I did notice that she unfriended him. It's at least a step in the right direction. I'm starting over from square 1 in the trust department, so this will be an ongoing feeling I'll need to deal with.
Feelings
I don't have 'those' feelings for her yet- I'm chalking it up to still being waaaay too early, but I can't help wondering if maybe after all this time and all I've been through, that they won't come back?? The thought of being intimate with her doesn't even cross my mind, and when it does, I question if I'd ever be able to, knowing there was an OM. Like I said- way too early for any of that thought, just noting it and wondering if others felt the same this early on? I do worry that W will throw her hands up and give up after a few weeks/months go by if she doesn't have 'those' feelings either. I just hope that we both can give it enough time to know for sure.
So right now it's just taking things slow, hanging out, having fun and rebuilding a friendship with no pressure involved. She initiates most of our communication, which shows me that she is putting forth the effort. Without coming out and saying it, I'm trying to let her drive us. If this should continue, at some point we'd need to have some tough conversations and I'd still insist on MC, but we're a ways off from that.
I welcome any thoughts/advice...