Nowhere to go - 05/26/03 04:56 PM
After 6 ½ months without a thread, I feel somehow compelled to start one. Frankly, I don’t know why. I’m not looking for advice, and I have truly run out of options. In any case, I’m not in a particularly receptive mood for advice.
Guess I’m just lonely.
The main source of encouragement I’ve clung to for myself, and offered to others was my belief in the human spirit. WAS’s want the same things we do. They want intimacy and companionship just as much as we do. If they didn’t, then they never would have entered into an R in the first place.
But a WAS has come to the conclusion that they can’t attain what they want with the LBS. S/he has come to believe that the only way to get what they want is to leave the R and hopefully find what they want somewhere else.
I still believe this is true.
I also always believed that if the LBS can demonstrate that the WAS can attain what they seek whilst staying in their current R, the WAS will discover that things weren’t as bad as they once seemed. They’ll see that the source of their discontent isn’t the LBS, and that the R can be a source of great joy.
I still believe this is true.
I always believed that, once the WAS can see that things can be better, they will be able to put the past behind them and the couple can be a team again – working towards a loving fulfilling future together. I believed that as long as both partners come to a point where they want to try, the human spirit can overcome all obstacles.
I no longer believe this is always the case.
My W and I are no longer friends. There was a time when we stood back to back against the world. When something went wrong for one of us, it went wrong for both of us. We were a team. We supported each other.
My W wants out of OR. Leaving OR is not feasable for reasons my old DB friends know about, so she lives her life and does her "job" (stay-at-home-mom).
She wants out, but there's nowhere to go. If I can't revive my M, then I have nowhere to go either.
About a week ago, our beloved DD#2 attempted suicide. W accepted support from her friends. We had nothing to say to each other.
Nurturing our children is her job, and supporting her whilst she does that is a role for her friends.
Guess I’m just lonely.
The main source of encouragement I’ve clung to for myself, and offered to others was my belief in the human spirit. WAS’s want the same things we do. They want intimacy and companionship just as much as we do. If they didn’t, then they never would have entered into an R in the first place.
But a WAS has come to the conclusion that they can’t attain what they want with the LBS. S/he has come to believe that the only way to get what they want is to leave the R and hopefully find what they want somewhere else.
I still believe this is true.
I also always believed that if the LBS can demonstrate that the WAS can attain what they seek whilst staying in their current R, the WAS will discover that things weren’t as bad as they once seemed. They’ll see that the source of their discontent isn’t the LBS, and that the R can be a source of great joy.
I still believe this is true.
I always believed that, once the WAS can see that things can be better, they will be able to put the past behind them and the couple can be a team again – working towards a loving fulfilling future together. I believed that as long as both partners come to a point where they want to try, the human spirit can overcome all obstacles.
I no longer believe this is always the case.
My W and I are no longer friends. There was a time when we stood back to back against the world. When something went wrong for one of us, it went wrong for both of us. We were a team. We supported each other.
My W wants out of OR. Leaving OR is not feasable for reasons my old DB friends know about, so she lives her life and does her "job" (stay-at-home-mom).
She wants out, but there's nowhere to go. If I can't revive my M, then I have nowhere to go either.
About a week ago, our beloved DD#2 attempted suicide. W accepted support from her friends. We had nothing to say to each other.
Nurturing our children is her job, and supporting her whilst she does that is a role for her friends.