Living with a workaholic spouse - 06/15/02 06:24 PM
We are at the stage of dealing with "normal" marital stress but sometimes we relate to each other like in the bad old days.
Last night my H called in front of other people to tell me in a firm harsh tone that he would be late. We both think he is hurting himself by overworking but he doesn't see any other way. He is so preoccupied with work that he doesn't have a brain cell left for much else. Despite all this, I have no desire to stand between him and his work. It's not fun but it doesn't anger me that he works a huge number of hours. However, I do get furious when he acts like I am an obstacle to his work. Futhermore, when I get angry, my H very rarely has the resources to understand why. He just registers that I'm angry and reacts with shotgun defensiveness, acusations, and withdrawl. He is very stressed out, I understand that and tell him in great detail how I understand what he is going through. In this latest case, despite huge evidence to the contrary, he insists that this idea, that he is treating me like I'm an obstacle, is all in my head. I tend to believe him too much in all kinds of circumstances and when I believe him instead of something I am sure is going on, I get knocked off balance and start thinking maybe I really am a terrible, critical, demanding person.
So I am taking the bait to this negative dance that we do in at least three ways: 1. getting angry at being falsely accused 2. trusting him more than myself and getting confused (the sad truth is that after all this time, I still don't know what to trust in our relationship) and 3. berating myself.
The mess that results is very similar to the affair mess and I need to address it somehow. Anybody relate to this? Any ideas?
Determined 2L
Last night my H called in front of other people to tell me in a firm harsh tone that he would be late. We both think he is hurting himself by overworking but he doesn't see any other way. He is so preoccupied with work that he doesn't have a brain cell left for much else. Despite all this, I have no desire to stand between him and his work. It's not fun but it doesn't anger me that he works a huge number of hours. However, I do get furious when he acts like I am an obstacle to his work. Futhermore, when I get angry, my H very rarely has the resources to understand why. He just registers that I'm angry and reacts with shotgun defensiveness, acusations, and withdrawl. He is very stressed out, I understand that and tell him in great detail how I understand what he is going through. In this latest case, despite huge evidence to the contrary, he insists that this idea, that he is treating me like I'm an obstacle, is all in my head. I tend to believe him too much in all kinds of circumstances and when I believe him instead of something I am sure is going on, I get knocked off balance and start thinking maybe I really am a terrible, critical, demanding person.
So I am taking the bait to this negative dance that we do in at least three ways: 1. getting angry at being falsely accused 2. trusting him more than myself and getting confused (the sad truth is that after all this time, I still don't know what to trust in our relationship) and 3. berating myself.
The mess that results is very similar to the affair mess and I need to address it somehow. Anybody relate to this? Any ideas?
Determined 2L