Am I doing the right thing by sitting back and waiting for her to tell me what is going on? I told her I need proof that NC has happened. I told her I will be looking through all of her social media accounts to make sure he is gone (I have friends and family who also have ways to see he is gone from social media).
The thing to have done is tell her you need her to be transparent. You don't tell her you are going to be searching through social media, have family and friends on the lookout, etc. to see if OM is really gone. The burden of proof is on her.
However, the transparency plan is your design. Make sense? She doesn't get to decide how much she reveals, or when or anything else. It's your plan.....your call. If she asks what kind of transparency you need, then you can tell her you need all her passwords to her accounts (email, SM, phone activity, etc.) . Now, remember, she is the cheater, not you. If she starts talking about it being an invasion of privacy, I want you to realize she's really talking about
invasion of secrecy. Why should she need privacy from her H, unless she doesn't want him knowing something. The point of transparency is two fold, IMHO. She violated her wedding vows, and betrayed your trust......so you can't simply trust her at her word. We call it trust and verify, but that is basically following a transparency plan. Speaking as a former WW, transparency helped me stay on the straight & narrow road throughout my withdrawals. I knew my H was checking. I didn't know when......but I knew he was checking. If she is serious about committing to the MR, she should agree to it. She doesn't have to like it........just agree to do it.
The reason I stress she agrees to transparency, is b/c it gives you free reign to look at her messages whenever you decide. Maybe I'm playing on words, but if she agrees, then it's not
snooping.........it's
verifying. And should she blow up about something you have to confront her about, you can remind her about the agreement. You don't verify every day, nor do you ask her to let you see..........unless she has her phone glued to her hip, then that may present a problem. (We can discuss this part more later, if you want.)
If she tries to make this transparency a two-way thing, saying you'll need to be transparent, also..........don't get pulled into that trap. I've seen too many LBH's so eager to get their cheater W back, that they put themselves in the same category as the WW......and that's the wrong move.
"Okay honey, if will make you feel better, I'll show you all of my text messages, too". Noooooo! You would be taking away the work she needs to do to recover from her wayward behavior. The LBH can't make it too easy for her to come back, b/c if she doesn't do the work, he'll face this crisis again. So, don't agree to do the same work (transparency) as required of the cheating spouse. Your work and
her work won't be exactly the same across the board. Ending all contact with OM and being transparent, is
part of her work Don't forget that you must see everything from the viewpoint of getting respect from her. She's not going to respect you by putting you in wayward category alongside of her. Don't argue about it, if she protests. Those are a couple of your terms to reconciliation. She can take it or leave it. She doesn't get to call the shots about reconciliation. She has the right to agree or disagree, but she doesn't have the right to call the terms. All this other stuff, such as living a healthier lifestyle, is secondary, IMHO. She will try to distract you away from the primary issue, by bringing up her complaints about you/MR. None of that other stuff needs to be discussed, until she agrees to stop all forms of contact with OM. The other issues within the MR can be discussed later, maybe in MC.
As for your WW getting her IC to help her draft a letter to OM? Never heard of it! The
betrayed H should be the one to help his
cheating W draft a letter to the male
predator. Wouldn't you agree?
I spoke to my IC and he said when we begin MC I can ask for more proof and set up expectations with her that allows me access to her phone/accounts. I know a lot of you say that happens first but I would prefer it done with the MC too. My hope is we start MC soon after she tells me contact is over.
How can you have it both ways? It seems to me that you are really seeing the IC for MC. It's rare for any counselor to align with the advice you receive here. Therapists don't even agree with each other, as well as in any other profession. So, I guess you'll have to decide. However, I just have to ask.......how are you going to reconcile if your boundary was NC with OM? Is your IC saying you are suppose to trust the word of a liar and cheater? Seriously? That's the problem. She can't be
trusted to NC with OM, especially right after ending things with him, b/c withdrawals begin immediately. That's why a plan has to be in place.
Frankly, I think you don't know what to do and just want MC to fix things. That's understandable......but let me share a personal experience I had with a highly recommended therapist in this area. So, I go into her office and tell her some of my very wayward behavior (to put it nicely) over the Internet with other men (yes, you heard me right). Know how she responded?
"Oh, that's okay. You've done NOTHING WRONG! Don't beat yourself up about it". Now, I was wayward, but I wasn't stupid.......I knew I was doing plenty that was
wrong. I knew I had lied, betrayed, cheated, disrespected my H/M, conducted myself very inappropriately, etc. And, this highly recommended therapist was telling me it was okay and I had done nothing
wrong? Maybe she was trying to win my trust, IDK, but she was talking to a gal who had been raised on "thou shalt and shalt not". So anyway, I started telling her more juicy details, b/c she was
validating everything that came out of my mouth. I wondered at what point she would stop acting as if we were a pair of teenage girls giggling over my latest escapades behind my H's back.......and start being real with me. I didn't need someone encouraging my fantasies. I needed someone to talk straight to me, and that's what I was getting on the DB board......straight, harsh truth. I was wayward, and knew I was wayward. I had enough sense to realize this therapist wasn't for me, and I left and didn't go back. The board became my therapy, and I was here every night until I couldn't hold my eyes open. I would go to work the next morning, then come right back to the board in the evenings. I'm not saying that would work for everyone. I'm saying that just b/c your WW is seeing an IC or decides to attend MC, doesn't mean it's going to fix her. Hopefully, it will help with whatever issues were caused in her past, if nothing else. I hope both of you will be helped, I really do. I encourage couples to find a good therapist who specializes in couples healing from an affair. You just have to know their title doesn't guarantee your success. And, sometimes, you have to shop around to find the right therapist. Anyway, I didn't mean to get so long winded on that subject.
So when she comes to me and says she's ended contact:
1. Prove it
2. Let me see your phone
3. Go to MC and set up expectations moving forward.
4. She continues IC (which she has now gone to a few weeks in a row).
No, don't say #1 & #2 like that, b/c it sounds as if she will have to show you proof
only once. Don't use the words "prove it". Don't tell her to show you her phone, like it's one time. Tell her you need her to agree to your transparency plan. Give all passwords, etc. Yes to #3 & #4, as long as the IC & MC aren't conflicting.
I'm going to close this post and continue on another one.