I'm really wanting to give your W the benefit of doubt on this one. We know her BFF is rotten and the worst influence for your W. I think she went alone with whatever the group wanted, and she knew you would probably have lots of questions if you knew they went to the old hangout.
Hey Sandi! Thanks so much for stopping by my thread! I still stop by myself from time to time and try to throw out the odd nugget by way of "paying it forward", but somehow I never feel quite right about it. Despite my W and i sharing literally everything now (or at least so i had thought), for a number of reasons i feel that this place and the experiences I had here are something I shouldn't necessarily share... and keeping that hidden runs counter to everything I thought (and that our counselor has continually taught us) a healthy marriage should be about. So, much as I like y'all and much as I'd like to help more... I just feel funny about it. I still am trying to find a way to get more engaged out here in the non-cyber world, hopefully through the church helping couples in troubled marriages.
At any rate, yes, part of me wants to give her the benefit of the doubt, here, too... Things have literally been great for us, better than they have ever been-- we are extremely affectionate, we laugh and joke and flirt constantly and talk frankly about everything, have frequent dates, and are always making plans for the future, never fight and she never shows me any disrespect-- and I have had no alarm bells or anything until now. But at the same time... I can't think of anything she could have done short of contacting OM or engaging in another affair that would have shaken my trust in her as seriously as this episode has.She KNOWS the relationship/dynamic with her and bff going out is an unpleasant one for me. Just in May we had a lengthy conversation about it as she was preparing to go visit bff for a weekend. She asked why I hadnt been very talkative and had been quiet whenever she brought up the trip. I told her, truthfully, that I had no reason not to trust her now, that i had faith in our relationship and didn't think she was going to stray while with bff but, at the same time, that there was still relatively recent history there and that, for me, her being together and going out with bff, and especially having a girls weekend with bff, raised those painful memories back up with me. Her response to that was "Well then i shouldn't go, how can I go after you told me that?" And my response to her at that point was: "This is a relationship you want to maintain, and even though I don't trust her, I trust you... The bad memories I have of that time and the associated pain are something that is going to take time to heal, and is just going to be part the continual healing of our own relationship... but there's nothing you are doing "wrong" or that would make me distrust you at this point that is causing those feelings to be there. Its just going to take time. Go, and have fun." So she went... but she is or should still be very aware of my feelings on the subject. FWIW, she also saw bff the weekend prior to this current incident (bff is in town for a couple of weeks to visit family and to hand off her kids to her ex, my own bff) and she kept in constant touch by text and told me everywhere she went. (And, after I found out what i found out last night i went back and checked her location the previous weekend, and for the visit to florida in May, and everything was just as she said.) So she knows this relationship and that dynamic still raise painful memories for me, and in similar situations the past few months she has gone out of her way to let me know where she is and what she's doing (and, yes, to flirt and such)... Until now.. and then she goes overboard for what is normal for us now, which was always a sign in the past that she'd messed up.
So, yeah... why not tell me now (and, as i have said, she and i have openly discussed going back to that bar together, and she has to know it is a strong possibility that we will do so in the future and also that i don't have any particular hesitation or hang up about the bar in a vacuum)? The fact that she was acting like she did and that she hasn't told me tells me she knows she did something she shouldn't have... I just... argh! We have had it hammered into us over and over and over how important openness and honesty and trust is, and she KNOWS that this (bff/OM/that whole dynamic) is the biggest potential trust issue that we still have!
Did the time on her text messages match the time your phone was down, or during the period you couldn't reach her?
Here's the timeline:
5:30 pm-- she leaves work
5:35pm-- she texts me (I am driving)
5:37-5:42--several texts exchanged with bff
5:55 pm -- arrrives at restaurant at mall (google location shows her at mall until 10:25)
6:44-6:49-- I send her two texts, responding to her and telling her i've arrived and telling her I'd call in a sec after checking in (didn't know she was going out straight from work, though i admittedly hadn't asked).
6:50-- I call her and phone goes straight to VM
6:51-- I text her again, letting her know i tried to call but she was going straight to VM
6:55--Up in room, i start thinking and run a family tracker... but her phone is not locatable.
8:00-- I call again but straight to VM
10:25--Google shows her leaving Mall
10:26--T Mobile phone log shows her receiving my texts at this time (so her phone WAS off or out of signal range), as well as a picture text from bff and two picture texts from one of the other girls
10:26-- log shows her sending first of several texts to me, though i do not receive it immediately.
10:25-10:42, -- she drives to a strip mall nearby and stops for 15 minutes, during which time she makes a three minute call to our son
10:57-- she drives to OM's old bar, arriving at approx 11:15
[GOOGLE LOCATION SHOWS HER AT THAT LOCATION AND THEN NEXT THING SHE IS HOME AT 10:17 NEXT MORNING, BUT NOTHING IN BETWEEN]
Approx 11:00-- my phone dies-- not sure exactly when as i stopped looking at it
11:13-11:17-- sends me a series of "Whatcha doing, I miss you" texts
11:50-- she sends me two more texts"where are you, I miss you type things"
12:45-- Two more texts to me
12:50-- I plug my phone into friends car lighter and get a little power but nothing downloads before i have to unplug
1:35-1:40 four more texts to me (Note that i don't know for sure what order the texts were sent in, but they clearly arrived in my inbox out of time order.
1:46-- I get to hotel and plug in and receive all the above texts from her. I reply "What happened to you?"
1:48-- Her: "Nothing, i texted you and got no response"
1:52-- Me to her: "Your phone was off"
BIG GAP
5:51 AM-- Text to me: "So weird my phone never rang and ringer is turned up, did you get all my texts"
5:53 AM-- Text to her friend with whom she used to work (the girl moved out of state two months ago) and in whom she had previously confided when I walked out on her last year and she was desperate for help
9:27 AM-- Me in response-- "You must have been in no signal zone then, where'd ya go?
10:08AM-- Her to me "Met the girls at _________ (bar at mall) after work. Really missed talking to and hugging you. Almost called a couple times but didn't want to be that girl who calls during guy time. [Lotta other chitter chatter, very long text, including the stuff about talking to the other girls about how good our marriage is now and how good therapy was and its better than ever etc etc etc.]"
That's pretty much it. She sent my numerous flirty bitmojis and texts after that, and talking about our upcoming date, but i was fairly curt in reply. She was super dolled up when i got back, very affectionate.
It does seem a bit overkill.......as if she wants to distract you from asking her more questions. What about the sexy photo? Did that surprise you, or is that the norm these past months?
Like I said, things have been very affectionate and flirty between us. We banter and cuddle and hold hands alot, even in front of the kids (which elicits groans and eye-rolls). That said, things have been a bit cooler the past couple of months, at least sexually: I injured my shoulder playing basketball and she had to go off of her BC pills because they were interacting with one of her other meds and making her sick, so we haven't been able to be quite as spontaneous (she even had a brief pregnancy "scare")... but we have still been as affectionate with each other. I would say the texting and constant day to day contact and banter has tailed off SOMEWHAT from the honeymoon-period peak... enough so that I noticed the significant ramp up after this past weekend's incident. I let her initiate the text exchanges on probably close to a 2-1 ratio, though i am still attentive and irascable and flirty and suggestive with her-- pursuit and distance, lol.
You ask one question and she never addresses it? Yes, I have to say it looks as if she was trying to avoid it. Perhaps she thought what you didn't know--wouldn't hurt you..........knowing how you feel about BFF arranging for her to meet OM at the bar in the past (or maybe it was another bar). Anyway, being a recovering WW, it was not wise to avoid your direct question. She should know by now that you will immediately pick up on how she skirts around it.
Yeah, she should have known. And she should know better. Sandi, isn't there a real risk here of her "getting a thrill" out of being sneaky and bad with bff again and rekindling the wayward mindset? She has always been a bit of stubborn, rebellious sort to begin with, even as that is at odds with her "good girl" Catholic upbringing. I really feel like she needs a good sharp rap on the knuckles with a ruler or something, here, to remind her...
My suggestion is to ask her to give you a direct answer on which bar they went to that night. The longer you hold on to this, the more it will eat at you.
How long has it been since last session with MC?
My inclination is to approach it one of two ways: 1) "Listen, W, is there anything else you want to tell me about the girls night out last Saturday night, where yall went and what you did?" or 2) (More direct) "When were you planning on tell me y'all went to Patriot's Saturday night?" I can see merit to either approach. 1 seems more passive aggressive and less assertive, while 2 seems possible to put her on the defensive. Then again, I DID say i think she needs a rap across the knuckles (or on the rump, lol). But, yeah... it is significant to me, and i don't think i can just let it slide-- it's important to me and I don't want it to fester AND i honestly worry a bit about a WW relapse, particularly with some of the things artista related a while back.
As to MC, we haven't had a full blown session in probably 9-10 , months, though we are a member of the MCs private FB group, where she does live podcasts and Q&As and we read her blog posts regularly. MC has actually checked in with us three or four times now asking how we are doing and if we wanted to come in. I have brought it up with W twice in the wake of these outreaches and W has demurred, most recently in June, saying "What is there to discuss? Are there any problems?"... and I really had to agree... things were great. I couldn't think of any marital issues we would discuss with MC. Like i said i still have lingering resentment towards bff and anytime they go out-- not a regular occurrence with bff in florida-- it still evokes painful memories in me but, other than that, OUR relationship is and has been great, and, until this Iweekend, I had nearly 100% trust in her. We are going to the beach in September for our anniversary, which is also where MC has her practice, and i had thought to suggest we take her to lunch or something just to say hi and say "thanks", but we have no sessions on the horizon. Maybe this would be reason to schedule one?
Thanks again Sandi! Glad you are still around!